I laid still, in child's pose, after 60 minutes of movement...and still there was that echo, a witness to all that I had done. I felt like I was on a boat--moving softly, gently, rhythmically. Where am I? Can I resurface to life and face a break-up, a hurricane, a snow storm, and even more?
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Oh Anya, I was sitting in a library minutes before arriving for the weekly session, studying medical terminology. I wished for a bit more time with the books but my hips were quite sore from the previous three-day Thai massage training I had led and mentally I needed the "workout" knowing that it might be the one and only time of the week that I would be led through the traversing wonders of my bodies: physical, mental, and spiritual.
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I had been looking forward to the semi-private Pilates session for weeks. I let Courtney know that I had pain deep in my hip. She warned me that it might get temporarily worse/magnified. I was willing because her subtext was, "the work will be worth it."
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First, I look at my feet. I witness my feet. How do I prove to myself that I have feet, and that I can use them to ground me when I need them? I scan and I sketch the foot with my outside eye so that I internalize this existential query and know that I have feet to ground into the Earth. In order to bring this experience into the body, ANYA offers five exercises on the floor.
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Enlivening the Hands: I place the palm centers of my hands together. I create a module of interest. I itemize the points of interest: sole centers, tips, base of fingers. I start to friction the namaste shape my hands make, creating heat and energy. [...]
this will be my little corner of universe where i'll traverse the teachings of centuries and days old. where i'll blend the stillness i find in motion and the inspiration i derive from Anya. i'll find a way to play with the vernaculars of said AUM curriculum (though i really don't want this to be a cerebral provocation)-- this is about a journey within and without.
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